A tweet and Facebook memories, again, bring me here. It's your anniversary, hah! Whatever~
It was the whole 8 years of the whole journey to move on from you, dear boy. Throughout the years that I manifested, "I HAVE MOVED ON", I was not. I quietly try to catch a glimpse of you through our batch-mate's ig story.
Until the day I had some real talk with my friends somewhere last year or the year before, I realized that we were never meant to be. You're still being you, and I'd probably not the current me if we were still together. Thank God, though it takes 8 years to realize, at least, better late than never.
I realize throughout the 8 years, though I started having an account from a couple of dating apps in 2020 (because of the lockdown, hahaha) I never really feel butterflies while messaging anyone. But I had butterflies every time I see you, from our batch-mate ig story. Crazy right? Even during our batch's iftar, 2019 is it? Entah, but it was hatred, but it was still you, deep inside, somehow.
After realizing that we have completely taken different paths, then I started looking for "the one". In fact, without realizing it, I smile like an idiot upon seeing a "Heyya" message from someone (this fella is also another story), but anyway, having a crush is never a problem anyway~ At least, my heart is beating again and I have butterflies for someone else, not you anymore.
A close friend told me that, the closure that I want does not have to come from you anyway. As long as I know it's over, I can close the page and move on. And I finally am. Hence, goodbye S.A.~
The End
January 2023